Glass Preview

Normally, I’d post a poem this second Monday of the month, but March 11th happens to be the protagonist’s birthday in one of my novel/game projects, Glass. It never fails that I end up thinking about this particular story on this particular day, so here’s an excerpt from the novel version:


12/22/10

Entry 1: Lost Boy

10/04/00

If Heaven is a real place, can I go there?

-Ervay

Cold. Why was it so cold?

I couldn’t tell. I opened my eyes – or were they already open? – and saw nothing but black. There was no sky. There was no soil. I stretched out my arms. I felt nothing. Nothing but a chill that tingled along the outline of my body. My fingers trembled. My legs shook. A shiver raced up my spine and pounded at the top of my scalp.

Wait. There was something. I noticed the roaring of the river for the first time. Why hadn’t I heard it before? Had it been my mind or my ears lagging behind? I still don’t know. Maybe the blackness outside was seeping inside. Maybe it was coming in through my ears. Maybe it was traveling over my tongue. Maybe it was bleeding in beneath my eyes, crawling into my veins, and painting over the white of my skull. Maybe it was clogging up my thoughts as well as my senses.

I looked around again at nothing. I needed to get away. If I was asleep, I needed to wake up.

The water was loud. Close. But no matter how much I searched, it wasn’t there. My hands couldn’t touch it. My eyes couldn’t find it. I could breathe, so I wasn’t beneath it.

Perhaps it was just an illusion, after all. Perhaps it wasn’t even there.

Or perhaps it was me who wasn’t there at all.

“Er…vay!”

My head jerked in the direction of the noise. My pulse crashed against my ribs. That single word pierced the black. My name.

Should I have recognized that voice? For a fleeting second, I almost believed I had, but then that faint tint of familiarity was gone. It passed right through my hazy head, lingering only on the edge that emptiness failed to permeate.

Whoever it belonged to, they were frightened. Terribly frightened. I’d never heard so much dread before.

“D…o…n’t… Go…!”

Don’t go? But I had to go. I certainly couldn’t stay!

“Don’t go!” the voice begged, as if it were arguing with my thoughts. It was a scream. The type of wail that cuts off as a heart stops beating forever.

I didn’t move.

“Ervay…!”

They were calling for help. They were calling me for help.

My throat condensed with a heavy swallow. “Where are you?”

No answer. The nothing ate my noise. Could the stranger hear me at all? That thought sucked the voice right out of me.

“Ervay!”

My stomach tightened. I needed to save them. I wanted to save them.

But somehow, I knew that I couldn’t.

My own dread drummed in my heart and drowned out the river’s rumbles. “Hey, who – ”

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Happy 2019

Hello all! Apologies for the recent silence. First came NaNoWriMo, then came major life changes that weren’t entirely expected. But now, 10 days into the new year, it’s time to get back to schedule.

Here’s a peak at my writing and game development related goals for 2019:

  • Indie Publish 3 Novels
    • The Woods at the End of the World (tentative title): A YA supernatural horror novel about a girl who might be one of the last people left on Earth.
    • Paragon (tentative title): An epic-length dark fantasy about a wayward scientist and his soldier companion who find themselves drawn into a cult that wants to recreate their troubled world.
    • (We Are All Made of) Glass: A horror-ish, YA-ish novel about a boy who finds himself trapped in a strange castle that doesn’t seem to want him to leave.
      • This one’s an adaption of the currently unfinished game called Glass.
  • Indie Publish at Least 1 Novelette/Novella
    • To Dust: A paranormal, post-apocalyptic story about a scavenger and her best friend who find more than scrap when they search an ancient house called the Origin.
      • If you came here from my email list, this is the Wish List story and it’s still on its way. A longer length than anticipated and the aforementioned life shakeups caused a delay. Updates will be coming to your inbox soon.
    • I may also aim for a couple more short story adaptions, schedule and inspiration permitting.
  • More Indie Publishing
    • All of Our Endings (Short Story Collection): On that note, I’m planning to put together a collection of my favorite short stories and flash fiction once further editing is done and publishing rights revert. These stories will highlight one theme that I’ve noticed showing up in a lot of my work – crossing thresholds. Worlds ending while others begin.
    • Introvert’s Anthem (Poetry Chapbook): I’m also working on my first collection of poetry, with themes centering authenticity, solitude, and purpose.
  • Game Development
    • Finally finish and publish the sequel to Happy Birthday.
    • Finish and publish a short horror game called Amaranthine.
    • Finish and publish an interactive fiction game called Remote.

I’ve been optimistic in laying out my goals. I don’t know that I’ll accomplish all of them, but I’m aiming to challenge myself this year as a writer and designer. I’ve had many projects in progress over the last couple of years – 2019 will be the one where I send them out into the world.

If you’d like to follow along, my email list will chronicle the journey.

I hope the year has treated you all well so far. What are some of your goals for 2019? Let me know in the comments so I can cheer you on!

Semester Finals & Screenshots

(Friday Updates: I’ll post updates from my projects every other Friday).

Well, another semester is over as of yesterday. It was an interesting few months at DigiPen – I worked on a tabletop RPG in an independent study class with a professor, worked with fellow students on another game project, worked with a second team on a physical escape room, and had my first experience with music theory.

The tabletop RPG is called InBetwixt, and will incorporate combat focused maps with a deeply branching narrative set in a purgatory world. I’ll share more information about it once it’s a bit more polished.

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A (slightly outdated) screenshot from Negativity.

My team game project is called Negativity, which is a puzzle platformer based around the concept of two characters existing in each other’s negative space. It’s a two player cooperative game where both players must work together and solve spatial puzzles to reunite. I work as one of three designers on the team, which also includes a group of talented programmers and a dedicated artist.

Production on both games will continue into the next semester.

I’m still plugging away at my personal projects, including Glass, as well. I’ve also been dabbling with Degica’s new Visual Novel Maker engine and some new ideas for RPGmaker MV. Glass’ next demo should be up early next year, but here’s some screenshots of the next town in the meantime:

Happy holidays!

Glass’ First Demo is Live!

GlassThumbIt’s been a long time coming, and this post is super late, but the first demo for Glass, my full-length RPG in progress, has been out in the world for the last couple of months!

There have been some frustrations, such as a stubborn occasional crashing bug that I haven’t yet been able to fix, and a lack of time to iterate as often as I’d like to, but it’s been a rewarding process so far. Glass is a story I’ve been working on in various forms for quite a while – it’s great to actually be able to share at least the first few hours of it. As much as I love traditional storytelling, and all of its unique strengths, there is something special about inviting players to explore an interactive world of your creation.

Glass (Demo 1.1) is available now and I’d love to hear what you think about the game so far!

 

Yearly Digest?

Whelp, it’s been forever since I updated this blog. The hush hasn’t been a lack of happenings, so much as a lack of time. Primarily, this is because I began attending a new college last fall. When this year’s summer break ends and fall semester starts anew, I’ll be a sophomore at DigiPen Institute of Technology, where I am pursing a Bachelor’s of Arts in Game Design.

Still, I’m going to make an effort to try to keep this place up to date, so to start, here’s a digest of what’s been happening in the past year.

First draft down!

I can happily report that I finally finished the first draft one of my upcoming novels, The Blue Crown. This is the same novel I talked about working on during Camp NaNoWriMo in my final post of 2015, and it so happened that I managed to finish off this draft during this year’s Camp sessions! The Blue Crown, now complete at 104k words, continued to surprise me. I’d expected to struggle and slosh through the final few chapters, but once I sat down and started, the end of the story came easily. This novel still needs a lot of work before it’s ready for readers, but it felt great to finally write ‘the end’ once more.

Final drafts are getting there?

The other novel I’ve mentioned quite a bit in the past, Paragon, is still in the works. I’m about 85% done with the fourth draft, but because of a bunch of plot and character changes, I believe it’s still going to need one more read through. I had hoped to complete the final draft and prepare it for querying before the end of the summer, but it doesn’t seem that’s going to happen. However, I do believe that getting Paragon out there by the end of year is very possible, and that will be my next major goal.

I’ve also already begun to pick at The Blue Crown. It is admittedly a bit of a mess in its current state, but not as much as Paragon was after it’s first draft. There are a few plot holes that need to be plugged and some rough edges that need to be polished, but I actually think there’s a possibility of this one being ready to go before 2017, as well.

That game demo is almost done

As for that demo of Glass, my full-length RPG game project, it’s almost done. It’s taken a hell of a lot longer to get it ready to share than I expected, with lots of little bugs and balance issues rearing their ugly heads, but I’ve also taken the time to add in a bunch of new combat and exploration features that I’m pretty happy with. It’s slow going, partially because I’ve also begun working on a few other game projects and because school kept me busy with game development work as well, but it is getting there. The only thing I have left to do is run through the content several times and make sure everything goes smoothly, from beginning to end.

On that note, if anyone would be interested in doing some pre-release playtesting of the demo, don’t hesitate to let me know. When the time comes, I should be able to offer compensation to those willing to test the game and provide feedback, but I’ll post more about this once it’s ready to go.

New RPG Maker MV projects

The semi-recent release of RPG Maker MV has served as a somewhat productive distraction from several of my other projects. After all, it’s hard to ignore an engine that’s shiny and new.

Right now, I actually have two game projects going in MV. On is a life simulation game mixed with dungeon crawling elements, which is still in its early stages of production. The other…I think I’m going to keep a bit of a secret, for now. However, I do hope to have this one ready for release by the end of 2016, as it’s already in its alpha stage of development.

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A screenshot of one of my MV projects. Hmm…this one looks a lot like Happy Birthday.

Fun with Unity Engine

Aside from RPG Maker, I’ve also invested some time in learning to use the Unity Engine. Actually, this is partially because it’s very similar to DigiPen’s Zero Engine, which is what I’ve been learning and using at school. It seems a shame to not be able to put some of those new skills to use in personal projects, since academic projects, while valuable in their own way, just aren’t the same, and I feel that getting your hands dirty on your own is often actually the easiest way to really learn and grow. So far, I’ve mostly gone through a bunch of different tutorials, but I do have a simple platformer game in the planning stages. Working with a new engine and on a new gameplay genre has admittedly been a breath of fresh air. Unity really is tons of fun.

Academic game projects

Of course, what I’ve spent most of my time with over the past year has been school. DigiPen likes to talk about its rigorous course work, and after freshman year, I can safely say that it isn’t kidding. DigiPen delights in keeping its students busy.

Still, at least the coursework is fun in its own right. While at the school, I’ve actually assisted in the creation of three game prototypes, lead the creation of one complete game, and designed and created several different board games, which was something almost entirely new to me, but surprisingly engaging.

I’ll talk more about these academic games projects, and what the experience at DigiPen has really been like, in a separate post on the topic, but in summary, in my first semester, I did narrative design for an adventure/puzzle game called Push the Button, level design for a puzzle game called Quantum, and narrative design and level design for a puzzle platformer called Artificial Platformer. In my second semester, I was both the lead designer and the lead writer for a murder mystery adventure game…expect it wasn’t a murder mystery because the college’s strict ‘PG’ content rating doesn’t allow murder in its projects, it was about a cookie jar. That was a fun one, in its own dysfunctional way. All of these games were completed in teams, and aside from working on the design of the games’ content and their narratives, I also dabbled with art and sound design, and did a hefty amount of programming and gameplay implementation from scratch, especially with Cookie Jar.

All in all, school has been a really great experience. There are a few things that bother me, such as a couple of sub-par teachers and the school’s general, dismissive attitude towards the subjects of solo projects and narrative design. Personally, I feel solo projects are really important for any game designer/developer in terms of learning who they are as a designer, and in terms of becoming well-rounded. Team projects have their own benefits, for sure, but they aren’t the same as really digging into your own project and facing down your own weaknesses, as well as really building on and discovering your strengths. In a team, it’s too easy to stick to only what you already know. Also, anyone who doesn’t believe that narrative design is an important aspect of game design is out of touch with the game industry and its diverse audiences as a whole, but these topics would also be better off in a different post. Despite these complaints, however, the school has definitely helped me grow as both a game designer and as a person, and I’m looking forward to returning next month.


All of this aside, I’ll update this blog more often during the coming school year. If there is anything you’d especially like to hear about, let me know. Has anyone experienced any exciting happenings since the August of 2015?

 

Back from Camp

WinnerCamp2015-73x73Well, I survived yet another Camp (of the imaginary, NaNoWriMo kind, that is). At least this time I got to take home a winner’s badge after reaching my 35k word goal!

Last month’s writing challenge actually went really well. Choosing to work on the particular WIP that I did (tentatively titled the The Blue Crown) was definitely the right decision. Instead of trying to force myself to work on something that I didn’t particularly want to, I got to have fun messing around with a plot and characters that I enjoy, and write towards a goal that actually felt attainable. I also discovered that I love this WIP a lot more than I thought I did (and oddly, a lot more than I did when I first began the story, back in the November NaNoWriMo of 2013).

Aside from just picking the right project, I also made sure to get a stronger start during the first week, which led into a pretty fantastic second week, too. The momentum managed to push me through some scenes I’d been dreading since 2013, and also led to some new plot directions that I didn’t necessarily have planned on my old, bare bones outline. It was a blast. The third week also went quite well, but I did start dragging my feet a bit during the final one. I ended up having to pull off a marathon final day to reach my 35k goal (at five minutes to midnight!), but, well, maybe it wouldn’t have felt like NaNo without that accidental tradition. At least I finally broke my NaNo losing streak!

Unfortunately, though, while I may have reached my word count goal for the month, I didn’t manage my goal of hitting the end of the manuscript. I realized that that wasn’t actually going to happen fairly early on, though. It seemed plausible in my head, before I actually started writing again, but once I did, all the scenes and chapters ballooned out, taking up much more words and time than I had expected. As of today, The Blue Crown sits at about 85k words total, with 20 completed chapters. There are about 2-3 chapters and an epilogue left to write. In the end, I’m still pretty pleased with the progress I made. I got through some really difficult sections, had a lot of fun, and there isn’t much more left to go before ‘the end’. Now to keep up the momentum… I determined to finish the thing at this point.

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Finally reached the end point of the demo!

On another note, I’ve also been putting a lot of time into my game project, Glass. Actually, that was one of the reasons that I fell behind during Camp’s final week. Glass is sort of an odd thing – I either have no inspiration for it whatsoever, or I have so much inspiration for it, that I work on it almost to the point of obsession. Inspiration fluctuates for any project, but Glass somehow takes that to its extreme.

It’s such a large-scale project that it sometimes feels a bit endless, but just earlier today, I finally completed the “first draft” of the demo! I still have tons of polishing and playtesting to do, and in particular, I want to work on enhancing the battle system and balancing the combat difficulty, but at least I have a completed backbone to work with. Even then, the demo only covers the first few hours of gameplay, so I’ve still got months of work to do before this whole thing is complete, but it will feel good to finally have something playable to share once the demo is polished up.

Did anyone else participate in Camp last month? If so, how did it go?

Slow Progress

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It was a dark and stormy night…

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I’ve been putting a lot of time into Glass, my main game project, recently. After months of letting it sit on hiatus, I’m really pushing to finish and release the first demo before the end of the summer. Some (slightly spoilery) screenshots of today’s work are above, although it’s all still very ‘WIP’ at this stage. I’ve come up with some scenes, ideas, and even items that are pretty…interesting, lately. Maybe I should work on my projects more when I’m overtired and slightly feverish, hah. Game development of any kind always seems to be slow going, and it’s the sort of thing where the more you get done, the more you realize you still need to do. Still, it’s very rewarding when it all comes together.

On another note, I’ve fallen quite a bit behind on posts for this blog…I’ll try to remedy that soon.